I have been wanting to post something for quite some time recently, but just have had so many thoughts about what to write that I got stuck. Imagine that, me at a loss for words. Don't worry, I'm all better now :)
First: A bunch of "firsts"
Travis took his first bottle.
We went to Maw Maw's house to visit and eat lunch. After we ate, Travis fed but didn't have the best feeding
(it was warm in Maw Maw's house, he got cozy and decided to fall asleep rather than eat a full meal). Usually we go 3 hours between feedings so I decided to pump an hour after I feed him. All was well until he got hungry an hour early and I didn't think I had enough milk to feed him naturally (
I was wrong), so Maw Maw suggested we feed him the milk I'd just pumped - we didn't have a bottle but luckily she did... and that kid downed 3.5 ounces of milk in about 10 minutes. I was so afraid he'd spit it all back up, but apparently his little tummy has a pretty substantial holding capacity! I am so happy that he doesn't have an issue taking a bottle. That should make my transition back to work much easier.
Maw Maw feeding Travis his first bottle
Travis went to his first wedding.
Jason's college friend, Stacy got married just outside San Antonio in Bracken at the cutest little Methodist church - it was a beautiful ceremony with a
whole lot of people packed into a tiny church. I was nervous that Travis would get fussy but he slept through the whole thing. He only startled once after the new bride and groom were announced and everyone started clapping. It was awesome.
We also go to to show him off to a bunch of Jason's old meat judging team... Kyle and Celeste, Bridget and her husband, Kristin and JD. It was great getting to see them. Kristin and John David just had twins, almost 2 months before Travis was born, so we were able to share stories about life with newborns. I am amazed how people function while raising twins, I can't imagine! One is tricky enough :) They are incredible parents!
Travis went to his first baby shower.
My high school girlfriend, Tracy, had a beautiful baby shower in San Antonio at The Bright Shawl. She is just an adorable pregnant momma-to-be and the shower was so pretty. Everything was pink - down to the french toast :)
Tracy and Chris opening gifts
I also got to catch up with Claire and Carol Schindler - it was
lovely girl time!
Claire making Travis smile. She's a baby whisperer.
Travis and I went to our first La Leche League meeting.
The best way I can describe LLL is AA for nursing mothers. It was nice meeting other women that are having the same struggles as I am, and that genuinely want to figure it out - regardless of how difficult it is. We shared stories, and I got coached by the group leader on how Travis and I are nursing. She reassured me that we are doing everything right - it was amazing to hear that... as a new mom, I have found that I have so many questions and I'm always second guessing if I'm doing it "right" so to hear someone else say that we are, was a real confidence booster.
We had our first overnight trip.
We traveled back to San Antonio to visit the Nana, Papa, Grandma, Maw Maw, Aunt Keri, Uncle Evan and Aunt Meigan. We had only planned on staying one night, but we really love being with the family so we decided to stay an extra night. Travis did well, but it is hard keeping the "normalcy" when you're out of your element. He had a little bit of a hard time adjusting - the 2nd night he woke up at 12, 2, 4 and 6am to eat. I don't know if it's because he's having a growth spurt or if it's because there are so many new sights, sounds and smells. Regardless, it was exhausting!
We've got a little routine here at home - command central, as I call it, in the nursery is all setup: computer for me to read nonstop when he's feeding, all the pillows, footstools, burp cloths, bottled water, music & entertainment is right here and when we are away, I have to get used to nursing in new positions, which is good, I need to learn it but it's hard... and setting up new stations (changing, baths) isn't easy either. We are definitely learning how to travel with a newborn. It requires a lot of stuff... and time. Luckily, my Jason is 100% present and helps with all the packing, loading, unloading, and travel business. I am a lucky lady to have such a great man in my life.
Next up: NURSING the good, the bad and the ugly.
It is by far, the hardest thing I have ever done in my adult life.
We are starting to get it.... almost 4 weeks in and I can finally feed him without the breast shield every time. (is this TMI?) Mom's out there, or mom's-to-be, it is
hard. But, totally worth it. You're giving your kiddo the best nutrition possible and I think that is worth all the pain and frustration. This week, I have cried at 2 am when it hurt so much to feed him and been absolutely elated when it worked right. I am convinced that this is just going to take time, and patience.
I've been wanting to post a little something about all the nursing products that I've found helpful, but I don't know that Travis will sleep long enough for me to write a total comprehensive list, so until then, here are the things that I love and that have helped make nursing-life
easier:
1.
My Breast Friend Nursing Pillow
I tried the
Boppy. I hate that thing. Unlike the MyBreastFriend, it doesn't have any way to hold the pillow close to you, so baby ends up sliding down and away from your body and when he is attached to a certain booby, it is painful when they start ripping away. I blame it whole-heartedly for the sore, bleeding, cracked nipples that I had my first week. I hate that thing BUT the My Breast Friend pillow has a clip that holds the pillow on your mid-section, so baby stays where he should, and the pillow is much firmer. AND, it has these little bumps that act as mini-pillows to help prop baby's head up. It is gold. And I love it.
2.
Medela Nursing Stool
It seems so insignificant, but having your feet propped up off the ground just a couple of inches helped me get him positioned a lot better. It also allows me to lean back in my nursing chair, which has helped with all the soreness in my back. 6 hours a day of sitting in a chair does a number on your neck and back... the stool has helped so much.
3.
Medela Nipple Shield
If it wasn't for this thing, I think I would have quit breast feeding after the first couple of days. I know a lot of Lactation Consultants frown upon using them, but for me, it has helped me make it through the ultra painful feedings and it helps slow down the flow of my milk, so Travis doesn't end up choking all the time. Also, it gives him more substance to latch onto which has helped train him to have a better latch. This really should be my #1 favorite nursing item BUT I'm trying to ween off using it - it is quite inconvenient when you're out and about. It has to be washed with non-antibacterial soap and water after each use, which is a pain in the butt and because it slows down the velocity of milk output, feedings take longer. Regardless, it's an amazing product. I also tried the
Tommee Tippee nipple shields, but for me, they were very uncomfortable - they actually hurt to use.
4.
Polysporin
Weird, yes. But when you're cracked/bleeding this stuff is awesome at helping you heal quickly. It's also safe for babies to nurse on, so you don't have to worry about wiping it off every time you need to feed.
5. A Great Nursing Bra
There is an incredible maternity/nursing boutique here in Austin called
Special Addition. They have the most knowledgeable staff and they are so willing to help mom's in every way they can. They make you feel like you are the only person in the store and they don't pressure you to buy anything - which for me, means I will buy almost anything they suggest because I trust them. They also offer free nursing advice over the phone and have 3 lactation consultants that you can schedule appointments with if you need one-on-one help. Anyway, back to the bra - they fitted me with 3 different nursing bras in 20 minutes and I am in love with
this one. It's made by Bella Matera and it is AMAZING how much better the girls feel now that they have some support. I had been wearing these
cute sleeping nursing bras from Target and didn't realize how much of a difference a little lift made in my overall comfort. Thank goodness for the wonderful women at
Special Addition.
Okay, the kiddo is waking up to eat so I'm off to be a human milk machine. Gotta love the new job ;)
xoxo, cyndy